Present tense, Past and Future; Using thesis writing to look back on my life

Flash back to a year ago; it was horrible. I remember I went home crying one day because the allergy doctor had told me that after two months I was still 12th on the treatment waiting list. My sugars got worse every day. I barely drove myself because my sugars were simply not stable enough for it to be safe so my mom or boyfriend went with me to meetings because they didn’t want me going alone by train either.

Gluten free world map

It has been two years since I found out I needed to eat glutenfree, and although I have found my way around in the area where I live, the biggest questions is always where to eat when I'm not familiar with a place. I have been very lucky to have travelled to quite some places …

Check check, double check

Last week I had my last appointment with the insulin allergy department in Amsterdam. Because of some minor snowfall all transport in the Netherlands is de-railed and as it had snowed the day before we took off bright and early. It was the first time that I was actually happy to be going to the hospital; I could simply not wait to tell them how well everything was going!

A new year

vuurwerk-watermerk The first of January always feels a little strange (and no, I don’t mean a hangover), it’s a similar feeling to the day after your birthday. A year has passed, thus it is the start of something new, and yet it still feels like an ordinary day. However, this year it is different, this year January 1st is the beginning of the first year I won’t have trouble with my blood sugars due to my insulin allergy. It is the year where I already have more energy, better sugars and less stress / frustrations due to my diabetes.....

World Diabetes Day

World diabetes day (November 14th) is the day that diabetes is the center of attention worldwide. It is also the first day of my ‘new’ life with diabetes. Do I feel different? To be honest, not really… yet I know that I will look back at this day for the rest of my life. I can remember the things I did the first couple of days after my diagnosis with diabetes. This day feels a little less drastic then after my diagnosis, but it is still the first day of the rest of my life........ grafiek 01

Hospital – Day 2

Today is my second day in the hospital. I haven’t slept very well, or long for that matter. The bed is not very comfortable, it squeaks, I had a bad hypo, and unfortunately I woke up from my roommate a couple of times because she was in so much pain. IMG_4533

Hospital day 1

logo_vumc_eng I ended up falling into a restless sleep. The boyfriends alarm went off at 06.00 and for some strange reason I couldn’t sleep anymore. I ended up watching some series in bed. I wasn’t very nervous, there was still a chance I wouldn’t get to start the treatment. If my temperature would be too high I wouldn’t be allowed to start and there could always be an emergent situation causing my bed to be needed by someone else. The wing my bed was on doesn’t have specific beds for the desensitization so if anything would happen my bed would be given up. This is also the reason it takes so long before patients can be treated. The chance that I would get the treatment and it wouldn’t work is also an option. But then at least you can continue, you don’t have to wait on something which may or may not work. For now I am taking a step forward, regardless if it will work or not…

It’s time!

Last week I have been very busy with forms to request study delay due to medical reasons and trying to figure out how I can improve my situation. The student doctor gave me the advice to call the insurance company and to try and email the doctor which made my allergy diagnosis. Thursday I received a confirmation my email was sent to the doctor.

Life is like the game of goose…

Life can be a fairy tale, but maybe it’s more realistic to compare it to the game of goose. You can’t always live on cloud nine, or in the case of the game, on geese. Not every square has a goose on it allowing you to go further. Some squares are ‘normal’, some make you go a few steps back, sometimes you need help from someone else to continue and sometimes you land on ‘death’ requiring you to start over. Unfortunately this option isn’t possible in real life… ganzenbord